The Intro

Here we go,

I don't even know the actual reason i wrote this blog.
I created this blog just want to satisfy my mind, actually, my mind was overwhelmed.
I have so much to say, but not really can't describe what am i feeling right now:")

But from now on, 
i will write everything in this blog just to know that i am alive.

and maybe if someone would find my notes, then they must be have a lot of time just to read these sentences. 

I have a lot of goals in my life, just like a normal person in this world. Having a dream job, met the favorite person of your life, getting married, having a kids maybe one or two whatever the gender its alright as long as they are healthy and happy with their life. I don't want to force them to fulfill someone else's expectation, just doing what they really want but just keep them in the right line (I just don't know the proper word that describes my word, if you know what i mean :")).

But before i continue those any further, i just want to remind myself that it's only such a plan. We are human. We dream and are good at planning something but not good enough to arrange and understand how our planning works.   

It remind me to IAN's song. 

I just want you to close all the doors 

Just leave me alone, I tried to hide it

Im scared of what's next

I still don't know where to go

But welcome to the show  

 If life is such a show, so make a good storyline. Even though life is hard and unpredictable I believe that we always be under he's guidance. Yea, God its the solution for everything that you've been through, keep that in mind ! I know that its hard at first, struggling and doing something to chase your goals :") But i just can't stop these feeling.

And for now, i just want to live my life. I would do everything and make a move, upgrading my skill and whatever it was. I just want to doing everything  i want and find my own happiness :)

and that was my intro, just like the first paragraph. 

I have so much to say, but not really can't describe what am i feeling right now:")

so this is my last word to finish my senteces :)

Maybe there's another part from this post. Bye 😊